I have been using alcohol since I was a kid. I got in trouble a lot as a by product and spent many days, weeks, and years in; police precinct holding cells, county jails and even one 4 year bid in prison. How I thought I “fixed my problem was to move as far away as I could. I was better for a while. Got married, my wife and I made the decision to have a child and carried that out. I have a beautiful little girl now. However, that is when my drinking got out of hand. I blamed all my problems on my wife, started hanging at the bars, and drunk driving, getting myself in trouble with the law again. 6 years have gone past since my wife and I split up and all I do is drink! Not in the morning, but as soon as I would get home from work that’s all I did, that’s what I’m doing while I write this! I have now lost my job for threatening my boss for unpaid wages and live with my Mother, going to college, but I have no direction and I feel very inadequate, useless, friendless, alone, betrayed, tired, fed-up, self-loathing, out of control, confused, etc. I need a way out! I know there is A.A., but I can’t seem to get the courage to tell strangers of my problem, in person. I guess maybe I’m not ready, but boy I feel ready. I’m tired of the vicious cycle. I stop, but then the sleeplessness, the jitters, the anxiety, headaches, feelings of impending doom, start and I finally give in. It’s getting worse every time I pick-up again. I spent the night with my daughter tonight and I think she could see me shaking and sense my being uncomfortable and that made me feel even worse! I hope there is help for me. I want to see my daughter grow-up!
Christopher Levesque on May 29 said:
I have been using alcohol since I was a kid. I got in trouble a lot as a by product and spent many days, weeks, and years in; police precinct holding cells, county jails and even one 4 year bid in prison. How I thought I “fixed my problem was to move as far away as I could. I was better for a while. Got married, my wife and I made the decision to have a child and carried that out. I have a beautiful little girl now. However, that is when my drinking got out of hand. I blamed all my problems on my wife, started hanging at the bars, and drunk driving, getting myself in trouble with the law again. 6 years have gone past since my wife and I split up and all I do is drink! Not in the morning, but as soon as I would get home from work that’s all I did, that’s what I’m doing while I write this! I have now lost my job for threatening my boss for unpaid wages and live with my Mother, going to college, but I have no direction and I feel very inadequate, useless, friendless, alone, betrayed, tired, fed-up, self-loathing, out of control, confused, etc. I need a way out! I know there is A.A., but I can’t seem to get the courage to tell strangers of my problem, in person. I guess maybe I’m not ready, but boy I feel ready. I’m tired of the vicious cycle. I stop, but then the sleeplessness, the jitters, the anxiety, headaches, feelings of impending doom, start and I finally give in. It’s getting worse every time I pick-up again. I spent the night with my daughter tonight and I think she could see me shaking and sense my being uncomfortable and that made me feel even worse! I hope there is help for me. I want to see my daughter grow-up!
Mark Tyrrell on June 16 said:
Hi Christopher
I hope you turn things around soon. If there is anything I can do you can privately message me by clicking the ‘contact Mark’ button top right
All the best
Mark